Thursday, June 13, 2024

The Great Unfolding: A True Past Life Regression Story


 "Life"

 

Originally written 1/27/2008

Introduction

When I first read about past life regression 13 or so years ago, I knew that it was something that I wanted to do.  At the time, I didn’t do anything to follow-up on the urge. With or without my help, everything began to unfold seemingly of its own accord eleven years later.

Here’s a poem I wrote about it all:

 

“Unity”

 

Holy instant blesses me

caresses me, undresses me

stripped clean.

 

Burning light, day and night

sun and moon are gone

hold on to nothing

be free to see

we are one.

 

Unity defines me

free of individuality

just love.

 

Plummeted up and into

the everything that is

single instant of silence

shared and known

One gift truly given

is returned a thousand fold.

 

When I was 12 years old, my dad died of cancer. He was barely 29 years old. Despite the fact that he knew what it was like to grow up without a father (his dad had died of cancer when he was 12 years old) he still wanted his headstone to read: “Everything Happens for the Best”. I smile thinking of the faith and wisdom he passed along with that one simple statement engraved in stone.

In 2005, my brother turned 29 years old. At the time, his oldest son was only two years old, the same age as he was when our dad died. My brother had an extremely difficult time emotionally in the months preceding his birthday. It was a combination of an identity crisis, mourning and fear that he would not live to see his own son grown. He only had one memory of our father. In their concern not to upset us by reliving the tragedy, our family didn’t talk about our dad much.  In an effort to give our dad back to my brother, I contacted family and friends to share with me any memories or funny stories they had. The project was quickly dubbed, “The Book of Dad” and while working on it I KNEW that I was doing one of my life’s works. I was joyous. Each day was a delight receiving emails telling tales about the man I miss so much. The project was a healing for everyone involved. I put the book together using the stories and old photos. I put together four large books for my brother, my sister, my mom and me and then made copies for everyone who had contributed. On my brother’s 29th birthday in June of that year, the four of us sat outside taking turns to read the stories to one another. Tears flowed and flowed.

When my mom gave me her contribution to the book, I was very much surprised to learn that one of my dad’s fears as he lay dying was that he would be forgotten, specifically by his children. To me, this very much explained the overpowering drive I felt putting the book together. It was much more than a birthday present for my brother. Throughout the process, I enjoyed an amazing connection with my dad. We laughed a lot.

The book and the process of putting it together, the remembering, was the gift referred to in the poem. This gift led to an unfolding of events that I never could have imagined.

Part 1 - The Unfolding

Putting together the book led to a closer relationship with one of my great uncles. He and I had never known each other very well and I was delighted to learn we shared a great love of words both in books and our own writing. In so many ways, I felt that I was more like this great uncle of mine than any other family member.  He was very enthusiastic about “The Book of Dad” and shared the project with even more family members.

In July, his youngest son read the book and told him about a memory he recalled about my dad, his older first cousin. His dad encouraged him to share his story with me. He emailed it to me and I was thrilled to read his story of the time when my dad was teaching him how to do back flips in their pool because I remembered that same day! Up until that point this cousin and I had probably only seen each other a handful of times in our lives, once every 5 to 10 years or so in our adult lives and a little more often as children.

So the summer continued with my uncle and me growing in our relationship with one another. In November, another one of my great uncles (his brother) died.  At the funeral, my cousin and I talked for the first time in over 6 years.  In January, I invited him and his wife to one of my husband’s shows.

In July 2006, he and his wife invited me and my family to their house for their annual 4th of July party. At the party, I got to know a brother-in-law of his.  Turns out that this brother-in-law is a clairvoyant and I couldn’t believe my luck! With my dad hanging out on the other side, I’ve always been more than interested in talking with anyone talented enough to communicate in that way. He and his wonderful wife, invited me to join them at a gathering of their “psycho” friends, as they jokingly called them. Their spiritualist church was planning a potluck dinner in August. I was thrilled at the idea of meeting some likeminded people and agreed.

As I was getting ready to go to the dinner, I realized that I had no idea of what to expect. All I knew for sure is that it would be a gathering of mediums and that there would be food. I remember thinking that the one thing I was most interested in was past life regression. I finished getting ready and left.

I arrived before my cousin and her husband, and I didn’t know anyone else there. I said a few hellos and then sat down on a couch. I was soon in conversation with a nice woman named Peggy. She clued me in a little about the church and what the evening would be like. After about 15 minutes or so, I saw them arrive. As I excused myself, Peggy informed me that she is a hypno-therapist and said that if I knew of anyone interested in past life regression to please give her a call! She handed me her card and I laughed, saying that I now understood why I had sat down next to her in the first place.

Part 2 -The Regression

I called Peggy not long after the gathering and made an appointment a couple weeks later. Not knowing what to expect, I was a little nervous. I was also questioning whether or not I should try and direct the experience in any way, meaning should I try and revisit a past life that included a specific person in my present lifetime or should I just leave it all up to the Powers that Be. Ultimately, I decided that I don’t know what’s best for me and so I left it up to the universe to present me with an experience which would best serve my greater learning. In hindsight, I really shouldn’t have been surprised that I recalled a lifetime of such pain and loss.  I cried during the entire session. What better experience to revisit than one that was so painful that its effects were being carried over into my present lifetime?

The setting was Egypt, Africa in a very, very poverty stricken backwoods tribe. The year that I entered into the lifetime was 1906. I was 24 years old. My life was full of incredible loss and scarcity. Our tribe didn't have enough food and people were dying from a terrible fever, which I believed to be coming from our water source.  When the pain overwhelmed me, I used to go to a secluded grassy area to be alone. While I was off by myself, I would wish that I was a bird so that I could fly away.

In horror and agony, I watched my mother (my sister in my current life) brutally beaten to death by three men, all because she had broken a tribal rule and given food to a starving child who was not of our tribe. Everyone else in our tribe looked the other way and said nothing but she was betrayed by one man who took the law into his own hands.  He went and recruited two men from a neighboring tribe to help him in the slaying. My sister (in this lifetime) completely freaks out if a man tries to pin her down in innocent horseplay. She considers this past life regression as much a gift to her as it was to me.

I was the mother of
three sons, though I only saw two of them. I'm fairly certain that one of them died at birth. Of the other two, my eldest was my father in this lifetime.  My youngest son was my daughter in this lifetime. He was a joy to behold in that barren life. He brought joy to everyone. He never complained when there wasn't enough to eat and the light of love lived in his eyes. I watched him die of fever when he was approximately six years old. Right before he died, he became momentarily conscious and looked deeply in my eyes. That moment of connection, I took as my greatest gift and locked it up inside my broken heart. It was the only thing that kept me living.

I relived the fear and terror of watching my
eldest son go through initiation rites of passage which had something to do with a leopard and being alone in the wilderness. He passed and my relief when he returned triumphant and proud was beyond description.

My current mother was also in that lifetime. She was a worrying neighbor / friend. I saw correlation between our relationship then and our relationship now.

There was also a “crazy uncle” as I called him during the session. He just sat all day long and we all took care of him. I have a feeling that he is in my current lifetime but I still don’t recall who he is.

My husband was completely emotionally shut down. His eyes were impenetrable walls showing no emotion, ever. He provided for us as best he could. He was strong and hard on the exterior but inside he was a broken man.

The tribal medicine man was a goofy but gifted sort. There was one particular moment after our youngest son had died when I was in despair before him on my knees and he reminded me that I had to do what I had come to do.  

In 1934, I too became ill with the fever and died with my eldest son (my dad) by my bedside. I remember not wanting to leave him alone but I just couldn’t go on. I believe that my husband was out on a hunt and came back to our village to find that I had died, leaving him with another loss to bear. Once on the other side, it was clear to me that the life lesson was that there is never sufficient reason not to be joyous!  The same lesson our youngest son had been teaching all along during his short lifetime.

I had always associated my fear of abandonment issues with the loss of my father this time around. During the regression, I realized that the fear actually stemmed from this time of terrible loss.

The gifts from this session continue…

Part 3 -  The Confirmation

At some point soon after the regression, I went on-line to search for fever epidemics in Egypt during the early 1900’s. Turns out there were a couple. As much as I knew the experience was real, I was very excited to read about it as a part of history. I also tried to find specific tribes that fit our physical characteristics but only narrowed it down to a few. We were very tall and thin, of course being on the verge of starvation, and we had the deepest blackest skin.

When I left the session, I immediately called my sister. She was anxiously waiting to hear how it had gone and was absolutely floored to hear the role she played. I drove out to her house the following day to give her the tape.

A few weeks later, the spiritualist church was hosting a gala which included various out of town mediums standing in front of the congregation giving readings. My sister and I went in hopes of hearing from our dad. We sat through the event basically unimpressed. Most of the mediums felt a bit bogus to me and I was trying to hold onto the hope I had when we first arrived. Early on my sister pointed out the medium sitting at the end on the right, the last speaker. My sister said that she liked her and had a feeling about her. (My sister has psychic tendencies too.)

We waited patiently. There were some powerful readings and some that were an insult to our intelligence. We didn’t hear from our dad. Finally, the last medium, Rev. Suzanne Greer, stood to give her readings. She specializes in spirit art which are drawings of souls, angels, etc. She then uses the drawings to give reading to the person for whom they were intended. She said that she had drawn the pieces on her plane ride from Washington to Cincinnati. She was down to the last one and my sister and I were trying not to let our disappointment get the better of us. 

She held the last piece in her hand and asked if anyone had a (my husband’s name) who was close to them. A lot of hands went up but she looked directly at me and said, “I think this one is for you.” The next sentence out of her mouth nearly knocked my sister and me out of our chairs. She said, “I’m not big on past lives but does Egypt have any meaning for you?” Tears were streaming down our faces and she called me forward to give the drawing to me. As I walked forward, she continued talking about my recent astral travels and how doors are opening for me and that I am to continue on this journey of discovery, that I am learning at a very high speed and that many gifts would be given to me in the process.  I don’t remember any more specifics because everything is very much a blur after that. The picture that she drew is of me from that lifetime. In the drawing, I have a large shining third eye.

~*~

Now, 16 year later, I see that the unfolding is still revealing itself and I give thanks for these profound gifts.

 

 

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